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My friends. I try to keep my blog happy and positive... but you guys are my friends, and I can't hide my sadness anymore. My grandpa is dying. I've been visiting him in the hospital every day. He's fading away. I cry constantly. My family cries together. We don't know what to do. There's nothing we can do. Just be with Grandpa (my Dad's dad) and keep loving on each other. Please pray for him that he is comfortable and not feeling the pain that to us looks so obvious. Pray that my grandma's big strong heart and bedside love keeps giving Grandpa the will and strength for each day that remains, and for our big family, that our breaking hearts last another day. We're about to lose our daddy, our joy, our pop, our storyteller, our politcal synic, our "does word searches with a ruler", our "calls Grandma boss and human vice", our "8 pillows for one person", our "toots and blames it on me", our chocolate bar giver, our dog re-namer, our "unborn baby gender guesser", our hairstyle critic, our frank-truth teller, our wire-stripper, our tin can finder & crusher, our team leader, our room at the end of the hall, our lovely guy. So sad. I just wanna lay in his bed with him and cuddle. I'm not re-reading this, or I'll erase it all. Just please pray.

17 comments:

  1. leigh-ann...you, your family, and your grandpa are in my thoughts and prayers...as someone who only has 1 grandparent left at 22, i've had to deal with losing 3 very special people. i can't say anything to make things feel better, but what helped me was focusing on all the years i was able to spend time with them and make amazing memories. and though they may not be physically here with me anymore, they are all around me in my life through little ways that only i would notice. i hope this helps ease some of your sadness.

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  2. i'm sorry LA
    Remind me sometime in the future to tell you the story of my grandpa and his last days with me.
    I love you

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  3. I'm so sorry Leigh-Ann. It's so hard to lose a grandparent. My thoughts are with you and your family while you see him through this.

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  4. Honey - I love the picture. It is only a moment in time - just that one moment captured for eternity. If we were meant to capture them all, there wouldn't be enough film in the world to do that. Okay, maybe digital to accomplish much more. But the best moments - the very best moments - are those that are spent with special people in our lives. My days don't go by that I don't miss my brother, Grandma, my Dad, and my Mom - who shared so much of my life and who were so integral in shaping the person I have become. Your grandpa lived long and happy and yes, I wish him no pain as his new journey in life leads a different path at this time. L-A, it's your turn to parent him. He needs a gentle hand. He needs a loving smile. He needs soothing words. You can provide them. Love knows no bounds. I'm here if you need to talk - call any time. T.

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  5. YOu all are in my prayers. I will be thinking of you. xo (((hugs)))

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  6. Grandpa would be so happy to hear you say all these things about him. You have described his character and tenacity towards life to a "T", I really like the political synic. Underneath his sometimes crusty shell, he's a softy, who loves his children and grandchildren and would do anything for any of us.
    We love you Rusty. :(

    Love Sharon (Momma)
    XOXOXOXOXO

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  7. *Crying as I read your post and as I typed this* LA - in describing your grandfather, I saw my father clearly..he was just like that. I understand what it is like to lose such an amazing person as that. I will sincerely pray for no pain, for strength, for will, and for the breaking hearts and for God's peace to be on you all. Please...say the things that need to be said..that's all I ask.
    Big BIG (((hugs))) to you and your family.

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  8. oh la, i´m so sorry to hear.
    i really don´t know what to say in these situations, so i will just say that you will be in my thoughts.
    hugs.

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  9. I just said a prayer for your grandpa, you, and your family. I lost my grandma about three weeks ago, so I understand how heartbroken you must feel. Thank you for sharing these memories about him. I will continue praying for all of you throughout the day.

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  10. {{{hugs}}} L-A..so sorry to hear this.

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  11. Oh honey! I'm so so sorry. You are most certainly in our thoughts and prayers. Your grandpa sounds amazing... what a blessing to reach his age and be so surrounded by love. Now I see where you get your spunk and loveable-ness!

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  12. Really, truly sorry, LA. I know how painful this is. I lost my favorite grandfather at 17, and though the pain did soften over time, I still miss him every day. There will be moments when you ache to see him again, but know that your memories will carry you and lift you through the sadness. God is so good to give us sweet memories.

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  13. How sad; I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts

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  14. LA, i had no idea that you & your family were going through such a rough time. all of you are in my thoughts & prayers. hugs to you, your grandpa & everyone else that is hurting.

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  15. oh Leigh-Ann
    I love you so much, and I'm sorry that you have to go through this. My family is going very much through something similar, and we will all be praying for you very much.

    If i could, I would get Franklin to sing you a song, because as we all know, it 'aint easy being white.

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  16. Leigh Ann,

    Praying for you & your family, and asking the God of all comfort to be near to you and to bind up your breaking hearts. "The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18

    Check out this song, by Watermark. It has ministered to me when I have felt brokenhearted. It's called "Arise and Be Comforted":
    http://play.rhapsody.com/playlistcentral/playlistdetail?tracks=tra.9488085&lsrc=RN_im&title=Rhapsody+User+Playlist
    tracks=tra.9488085&title=Rhapsody+User+Playlist&lsrc=RN_htm

    (hope that works!)

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  17. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather LA. He sounds like he was such a wonderful man. I'm thinking of you.

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