I've been avoiding sharing my reality for quite a while (I was trying to respect Keith's privacy; he's given me permission to talk about it now).
Soon after I returned from Missouri, Keith lost his job and has had a hard time finding work. I've been trying to keep up with the bills and stay positive. When it happened, I amped up my schedule and was working every hour of the day and staying up really late at night, and it's pretty much worn me out.
On top of that, for a long time, Keith and I have been having some trouble in our relationship (unrelated to his job) and we're no longer living together. We're trying very hard to mend things and reconnect to the way we once were, but it's taking time, and is a very sensitive matter (this will stay private and I will not be talking about it in anymore detail. But I want to say that I still love him and he still loves me, we just needed to work on some important things and evaluate).
Basically, I'm just over stressed, sad & down and having a hard time functioning the way I usually do. My family has been really amazing; Kody has especially been an angel! And I know I'm a strong girl and a fighter and I'll get thru it, it's just been a lot to handle at once.
I spent the last week at the cabin with my family to get out of the city a bit and try to relax. It was very nice and I gained so much joy from taking care of Olivia and Kennedy with Mom for a few days... it was really special.
I'll be back in the next few days with photos of a new custom album I made :) It's really different and cool!
Hugs, see you soon :)
