Writing and sharing the start of my autoblography yesterday was incredibly freeing. I intended to do it last Friday, and made enough distractions that i "ran out of time". Each day through the weekend, I went through the same process... and became aware of the fact that I was avoiding it and procrastinating. Plus, I was worried L&N would find the post, through facebook or something. I see Nikki sometimes and she's a really nice/genuine person now and I enjoy talking to her, but there's still an intimidation factor. Monday I got an encouraging email from a stranger who reads my blog (i think she'd prefer her story private) but basically she gave me the courage to share mine and get to it. I stayed up till 6 am till mine was done, and hit publish. Then I sat there waiting for a validating comment that made me feel safe sharing my story. They came quickly and they were so sincere. To my surprise, a lot of girls (now women) had gone through similar stories and it made me really glad I'd shared my own story. There's safety in numbers, knowing I wasn't alone really did something to the healing of my past, and from what I read, it was helping others too. Thank you so much to everyone who read it, shared, supported and sent love!
In Chapter Two, you'll see things start to get better. Until then, I encourage you to write out your own Chapter One. You can burn it after you write it or share it with a loved one you trust. It's not really about what you do with it after; more so, the process of writing it out, let's it out and you will probably feel some healing or celebration for your own Chapter One.
Thank you for your warm hearts,
ps. I bought 3 more vintage dresses :) Wanna see?
Too much blue but they were too pretty to pass up!
& Elsie just tweeted that she got me these ones... thanks Pilgrim!
New addictions kick in fast with me!