a little update...

I've been avoiding sharing my reality for quite a while (I was trying to respect Keith's privacy; he's given me permission to talk about it now). Soon after I returned from Missouri, Keith lost his job and has had a hard time finding work. I've been trying to keep up with the bills and stay positive. When it happened, I amped up my schedule and was working every hour of the day and staying up really late at night, and it's pretty much worn me out. On top of that, for a long time, Keith and I have been having some trouble in our relationship (unrelated to his job) and we're no longer living together. We're trying very hard to mend things and reconnect to the way we once were, but it's taking time, and is a very sensitive matter (this will stay private and I will not be talking about it in anymore detail. But I want to say that I still love him and he still loves me, we just needed to work on some important things and evaluate). Basically, I'm just over stressed, sad & down and having a hard time functioning the way I usually do. My family has been really amazing; Kody has especially been an angel! And I know I'm a strong girl and a fighter and I'll get thru it, it's just been a lot to handle at once. I spent the last week at the cabin with my family to get out of the city a bit and try to relax. It was very nice and I gained so much joy from taking care of Olivia and Kennedy with Mom for a few days... it was really special. I'll be back in the next few days with photos of a new custom album I made :) It's really different and cool! Hugs, see you soon :)

65 comments:

  1. Hang in there, LA! I hope you guys are able to work things out for the best---whatever that turns out to be! I am glad to read that you got a chance to relax at a cabin with the fam!

    xo

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  2. Oh, just from your blog you two seem like such a great couple. I really hope things work out for the two of you. ((hugs))

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  3. I hope everything works out and you remember to breathe :)

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  4. You poor thing! Thats a lot for 1 person to handle. But know that you are not alone and are loved very much!

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  5. my husband and i are going through a very similar thing, and oddly enough, it happened during/right after my trip to missouri as well :[ it's not an easy thing to deal with, but with the help and support of family and friends, the situation can definitely be manageable. i hope the two of you are able to rekindle the love you have for each other :]

    love you LA!
    emjay

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  6. I've never commented but big hugs from Ottawa, I hope things look up soon.

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  7. Praying for you.
    Jeremiah 29:11

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  8. Aww, hugs for you! :) I hope you can make time to relax and recharge and everything falls back into place. :) Hang in there!

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  9. oh darling! i've been where you're at & its not fun. i hope things work out exactly how you want & need them to.
    hugs!!!

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  10. Sorry things are tough right now, Leigh~Ann! I'll be thinking about you and praying for you. PS we did outside pics at the forks-lots of fun!

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  11. There are few things harder than what you're going through; be good to yourself. Take the time you need to process. Cry and lean on friends. I think all will come out in the end - I just see you guys together.

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  12. Well lots of hugs and support.

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  13. Sometimes we just have to hang by our toenails! Hang in there chick!!!!!

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  14. I'm glad you're talking about it a little bit. The comfort & encouragement from people who care about you will help strengthen you even more!!! Sending you great big hugs!!!!
    Love ya, girl!!! xoxo

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  15. Oh Leigh-Ann, I'm not sure if I have ever commented here, but I love reading your blog. I will be hoping that things start going in a more positive direction for you soon! Thank you for sharing something so personal here; I am sure all of us in blogland will be supporting you through this trying time.

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  16. Trust in God, He knows what He's doing :)
    God Bless, LA!


    www.inawalnutshell.blogspot.com

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  17. I'm not sure what to say since all I know of you is from this blog, which is probably just a little piece of your world...so all I can do is give you the BIGGEST virtual hug, ever. Stay positive, cute lady :)

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  18. (I come visit all the time & am not sure I've ever commented! I'm not usually so lurk-ish! Forgive me!)

    Thinking about you, doll. I'm going through some relationship stuff(also, with a Keith!) right now too. Ugh, it sucks. I haven't decided whether or not I will blog about it yet, not knowing how things will turn out. I guess it's hard b/c I tried not to share negative relationship stuff with blogland(which I'm sure is what most people do). That's not fun to blog about... it was much easier to talk about the cute stuff. Anyway, I'm thinking about you!
    Sending hugs your way & hoping everything smooths over for you soon.

    ~Lacey
    laceyinloveblog.blogspot.com
    lacey_inthesky@yahoo.com

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  19. Hoping this rough patch passes and you are left with nothing but happiness! I love your work and find your site a bright part of my days.

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  20. I'm sorry to hear things are tough right now LA. It must have been really hard not to be able to talk about the hardships going on in your life. I've been there myself and its such a terriable situatation to have to go through. Remember talking is the key, family, friends, whoever will listen xxx

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  21. So sorry to hear that you are under such stress! You are a lovely gal! You'll get through this--hang in there! Hugs!!!

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  22. stop stealing my life situations--my boyfriend has been jobless for six months and it certainly makes any existing problems harder. he's moving out at the end of this month. it's a tough time for relationships it seems (from viewing the other comments), but we all seem to be staying pretty positive about it.

    well wishes and positive vibes are being sent your way.


    and hugs too!

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  23. *hugs*LA. Whatever happens, I'm sure you will find the exact amount of strength it will take to rise up from it. You are awesome!

    I don't know if you know about this site yet but I wanted to share it with you.
    http://happytape.bigcartel.com/
    they sell on etsy, too.
    http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=7133652

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  24. l*a

    i never comment. but i felt like saying hi and i love you blog and your sweet spirit.
    i am so sorry you are having a rough time.... i hope everything works out how it is supposed to and that art and music can let you express your emotions in a creative way that make you feel better! xoxoxox

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  25. Longtime lurker, here...Hang in there girl.
    You have such a positive outlook, nothing but good things will follow. Sending good vibes.

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  26. It really sucks that crappy things happen to awesome people.

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  27. Hey sweet stuff, just wanted to give you a huge hug, thinking of you both :)

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  28. Hang in there sweetie. As many times as everyone said it; it never hurts to hear it again.

    Just be who you are! and everything will work out for the best. My thoughts are with you. Everyone has been there at least once, and I'm sure many people here will be able to offer some amazing advice or a shoulder to lean on.

    Just make sure to take a moment for yourself! Deep breathes, sing loudly in the shower, and smile even if your frazzled on the inside.

    :) x's a gubazillion!
    xo. Kyla

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  29. Sweetie! My thoughts go out to you.
    *Hugs*

    Remember to take some time for you. Breathe, Sing loudly in the shower, and smile on the outside even if you're frazzled on the inside.

    Just make sure to be true to yourself and everything will work out for the best. As hard as it is right now there is always that silver lining. I'm sure there are lots of people within your reach who can offer amazing advice or at least a shoulder to lean on.

    Feel better!
    :) x's agubazillion!

    xo. Kyla

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  30. i hope everything solves out the best and you´ll feel better soon. lots of huggies!
    love ya lagator!

    ink

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  31. You are the only one who knows what's right for you. You might not be sure of what that is yet, but I know you'll figure it out. Love you!
    :-X

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  32. Big sweaty hugs from Texas. Take care of yourself.

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  33. hugs to you Leigh-Ann! you are one of my very favourite bloggers and i'm sad that you're sad! i hope that everything gets better for you soon. keep leaning on your friends and family - that's what they're there for. and you know you can always count on your faithful readers to "virtually" support you too :)

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  34. Sending you love and light as you work through this tough patch -- for me -- I've been amazed at my support when I am in the brambles of life.

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  35. awwww, Leigh-Ann. I hope things turn out perfectly and that you can work through everything you need to. So glad you enjoyed the time with your family.

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  36. sending happy vibes to you! hoping things work out wonderfully in all ways :)

    i put in my etsy order (can't wait for the buttons!) thanks for making an "i love ketchup" one! my husband will thank you!

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  37. sending you happy vibes! hoping things all work out wonderfully.

    thanks for making the "i love ketchup" button, just placed my order, my DH will thank you!

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  38. Leigh-Ann, I am sad to hear you are going through so much right now. I have always admired your relationship, and I hope things work out for the best. Don't worry. My grandma always says, "This too shall pass." Keep your chin up, and know that we all love you and are thinking of you. :)

    Sending you hugs and smiles from West Virginia. :) XOXO Heather

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  39. i pop by your blog every once in a while to try to get the rss to work for me [i've tried 7 times, and it didn't work until today] i'm happy it worked, but so sad to read this post! it must be a terrible thing to go through. i really hope things all work out the way they're meant to. :) it sounds like you have a lot of close friends that you can talk to. and if you need a not-so-close friend [that's willing to be a close one], you can always talk to me. [katiehaddox_at_gmail_dot_com]

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  40. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers LA. xoxo

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  41. always look on the bright side of life! warm thoughts are being sent to you.

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  42. At the end of the day (and I've had to do this a lot) you have to look at the big picture and ask yourself one question. Is your love worth fighting for?

    If things were great once, they can be great again.

    Just keep on, keepin' on, Miss Lala. <3

    We've got your back.

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  43. I can completely relate to what you are going through right now. I just broke up with my boyfriend and even though we knew it was the right thing to do, it was unbearably heartbreaking. It's the saddest thing when two people who love eachother so much can't seem to work so well together, no matter what they try to do to salvage things. My wish for you is that you can regain the love you once had, and if that cannot be so, then I wish you much happiness in your new adventures :)

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  44. hey girl!! thanks for sharing a little with us. i know how hard it is in those type of situations. i have been divorced at a young age (22) and have hit rough times in my life when you know that nothing makes sense and you just want things to be the same way they were when you were happy.
    everything happens for a reason, take it all in and don't run away from what you are feeling. those moments will get you through everything!
    you are one of the most inspiring people in my life and there is a light that shines through you! you are beautiful inside and out, your smile lights up a room! if you ever feel down, just remember; there are lives you have touched, in one way or another!
    big hugs to you!
    xoxo kimi

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  45. Sending hugs to both of you. As difficult as it is to go through ALL tough times, they make us stronger and more appreciative of the joy that is waiting over the hill. I hope the clouds part soon for both of you and that you make some magical discoveries along the way (unfortunately you usually can't spot them until hindsight kicks in). Sending positive vibes to both of you.

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  46. This is my first comment, even though I read your blog daily (and LOVE it!). I'm really sorry things are so tough for you right now, you seem like an amazing girl with lots of energy and lots of love in your bones. If it's meant to be, it will be. Whatever happens just know that you are inspiring so many others with what you do and how you live...even if you don't always know it! Good luck x

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  47. Oh, I'm so sorry! I'm glad that the 2 of you are at least trying to put things back together - that means a bunch right there. I agree with Plastic Bag Free Haddington (!), if it's meant to be....it shall!
    Can wait to see the new album - they are all so inspirational!

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  48. Leigh-Ann I'm so sorry!
    I have never commented here because i don't speak (and write) english very well(i'm italian), but I love reading your blog sooo much!
    i send to you big big big hugs!
    you make me smile every day so i hope this will feel you a little bit better!
    kisses
    Alessandra

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  49. Hi Leigh-Ann,
    So sorry to hear about your love troubles lately; I just recently found your blog and it has become a favorite already! Hang in there - it is obvious you have lots of people who care about you and I'm sure the beautiful work you do will keep you busy :)

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  50. Hey LA! I really hope everything turns out ok. it seems all great couples must go through at least 1 rough patch so I'm sure this is your only one ever :) You are really inspiring and I love keeping up with your blog and work.
    xoxo

    lauralilyan[at]gmail[dot]com

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  51. Wow that sounds like a very overwhelming amount of stuff going on. My prayers are with you

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  52. you're always in my thoughts anyhow, at the back, as a sweet remeberance of a sweet time and now, you will be moved back to the front! Lots of thoughts and love and prayers and well wishes flying your way. Hang on tight LA!

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  53. I'm really sorry to hear that, LA. Even though I don't think we've ever communicated back-and-forth, I want you to know that I, too, am going through something similar. My husband and I are just...out of sync. We've been fighting a lot lately and I also moved out. We both still love each other deeply, but I think we need to work on ourselves first, before we can work on our marriage. Sounds backwards maybe, but there it is. I want you to know that if you ever need to talk to anyone who won't judge and who will just let you vent, I'm here for you. I hope that doesn't sound too weird.

    xo
    Justyna

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  54. leigh-ann i'm so sorry to hear about all that, times are really tough for everyone right now. my step-dad was just laid off and my parents are struggling too. i hope keith finds some work soon, i know that's a difficult spot to be in.

    and i really hope this little break from living together will make your relationship stronger. i've only been with my boyfriend for a year and he wants to move in together already, i think that's such a big step, i'm not ready for that. sometimes it's nice to have your own space. everything will work itself out the way it's supposed to. just hang in there, these times will be changing again soon.

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  55. Just wanted to send some hugs your way! Take care of yourself.

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  56. Lee-Ann,
    I've been meaning to send you a message to let you know you have a fan from Toronto by way of NZ. I LOVE your blog. I've been reading for the last few months, after finding you via RVA. I'm so glad I did.
    xx

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  57. Leigh-Ann, I mean Leigh Ann. Apologies. :)

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  58. Keep on keeping on! You obviously have lots of support and ears(eyes) on your blog. Things will work out. You have 50 something people who've you never met, but are thinking about you because you are awesome and we love your blog! Hope you have a good, restful weekend!

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  59. Here to support and love you, LA.

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  60. Oh LA... I am so sorry!
    I have hope that things will work out.

    Love from Michigan
    Kristen

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  61. LA... I've been away from my computer for a while and just checked back in. Sorry to hear about the tough times. Sending good vibes your way. You are such a sweet person... I hope things turn out the way you want them to. Lots-o-love.... Jenn

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