I feel even worse than I look.
I saw Tyson tonight.
Can this not be happening? Why can't we just fix it together?! I am so bystanderd in this decision. I can't change his mind. I want to, but I can't. But I want to. But I can't. I tried.
My prayers are getting harder. They're not as hopeful as they used to be. But I will proceed.
God, give me the strength...
Please.
Please wipe away these constant tears and caving chest. It hurts so bad! IT HURTS GOD!!! It hurts! I tried! I was trying! But I wasn't enough! I want a rematch! I want to be in his arms! I miss his chin.
Can I just have a coma please?
I better drink some Gatorade because dehydration is on the horizon.
I feel even worse than I look.
I saw Tyson tonight.
Can this not be happening? Why can't we just fix it together?! I am so bystanderd in this decision. I can't change his mind. I want to, but I can't. But I want to. But I can't. I tried.
My prayers are getting harder. They're not as hopeful as they used to be. But I will proceed.
God, give me the strength...
Please.
Please wipe away these constant tears and caving chest. It hurts so bad! IT HURTS GOD!!! It hurts! I tried! I was trying! But I wasn't enough! I want a rematch! I want to be in his arms! I miss his chin.
Can I just have a coma please?
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LA - these little words on your screen hold much more than they seem. (hugs) and prayers. God loves you and Tyson.
ReplyDeleteLA, I am hurting along with you. I seriously try to imagine myself in your shoes so that I can better pray for you. And I pray for Tyson. I know that you can fix this together. God knows you can fix this together. Now we just gotta pray that Tyson will know this too.
ReplyDeleteLA, I am praying for you. I can't imagine the pain you are in right now, but we do serve a Mighty God, and He can fix anything! Keep looking to Him, and remember we are all here for you. When you feel like you don't have the strength to go on, we are praying for you! I am praying that God will give you the strength to endure, and that God will work in Tyson and bring him back to you. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteDon't give up! Keep going! Keep trying! Keep loving!
ReplyDeleteLove you!!
LA
ReplyDeleteYour transparency is really inspiring. It takes a lot of honesty and heart to put it out there like that. I think it will be helpful, and healing...people love you. People love Tyson. We can love him vicariously through you. No judgements...just prayers and love. You have it. *hug
I am praying for you and for Tyson. I am praying for peace and for healing. I am praying Gods plan for both of your lives. Never forget that you can always go to God with your sad heart, with your broken dreams and with your future. Hugs, Lynne
ReplyDeleteI am sure you have a ton of people in your life but if you ever want an anonymous friend to offload on then please feel free to email me at georgiamudfudge (at) homtmail (dot) com
don't let your heart get too hard to protect it from the hurt Leigh-Ann. Keep loving and praying and grieving and living...keep going until you have an answer either way! Keep reaching out and being loved by everyone. I am praying for you and Tyson...
ReplyDelete“Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope; it can outlast anything. Love still stands when all else has fallen.”
ReplyDeleteL.A. I am just catching up on my reading now, so sorry to hear you are going thru such difficult timesright , I hope your spirits are lifted soon, hang in there.
ReplyDeleteLee Lee,
ReplyDeletehang in there girl, you're strong, your faith is strong. you set your bird free, it will find it's way back to your heart and once it does you know that it will be your to have forever.
love you,
Manda ((hugs))
LA,
ReplyDeleteMy mom always has words for these situations that are just hard for me to appreciate at the moment but its still her way of loving on me when I'm sad. I hope you're feeling loved on here.
R
Wow, it was like I was supposed to read this. I am going through something similar and though we don't know one another, (and without sounding cliche) I believe it's safe to say we aren't alone. I may not know your particular situation but I feel your hurt. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteLA,
ReplyDeleteHold on... Life will turn in a better direction... SOON.
"Everything always ends up okay...if its not okay, its not the end."