I just got home... been out since 8:30am. I am exhausted! Amanda and I spent the day together today. (I'm subconsciously keeping busy to avoid thinking...) Went to church, stitched, talked, dreamed up a new line for FN, played with Olivia and Kennedy...and the went out for Dad's birthday dinner. Yesterday Ashli came over to be with me. I am surrounded by love and blessings. Honestly, I think I'm in shock. I'm so confused. It's so weird. Thats all I keep saying... it's so weird. It was an okay day. Everything reminds me of him... so hard. Yesterday was the first day in our 6 years together, that I haven't talked or been in contact with Tys. It's impossibly painful. LA PS: Seriously, ALL of your comments and emails are amazing! There has been so many! And every one is individually perfect! Thank-You! Even though there's nothing that can make this better... it is helping SO MUCH!!! I really really appreciate you! 123T.