the silver lining

I could tell that I've been loosing weight over the last month. My face and my stomach show it the most. I can pull my jeans off without unbuttoning them. Belt necessary now, lol. I weighed myself last night while at Mom and Dads. I lost 10 pounds!! ...I found a silver lining in divorce. lol.
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Maybe I'll give a little LA update.
I've decided to move on... however that looks. Most days I'm doing pretty good. There's definately moments where I'm unavoidably reminded...like checking the mailbox(Christmas cards to 'the Keffers'), going to bed alone, drifting thoughts, Christmastime...and just not having my best friend anymore.
I had to let my expectations and dreams of the future die, and start fresh. Which when you ignore the emotional part of it, is actually a very exciting thing. I'm not making any big decisions right now, just having fun, spending time with my family and friends, dating a bit, and taking a holiday from Freckled Nest thru December. That's been nice. I haven't taken a break since summer. I'm not waiting as long next time. And next week I have a few days off from work. :)
I've been taking good care of myself (appearance and health). I feel good and I walk with confidence. I just noticed that change yesterday. And it's funny, I notice guys checking me out. Like...what? Thats pretty new for me. haha.
Working as a secretary still, and not hermiting away. I'm not letting this destroy me. It's making me stronger. And even though I would have never wanted this, this is the cards I was dealt, and I'm moving on. I don't hope for reconciliation anymore. I don't think it's the best thing for either of us. If we hadn't broken up, I never would say that... I would tried to fix it with him. But this IS what happened, and I don't have any trust for marriage anymore. Not mine anyways. It's over. I can't go back to that. And I hope he finds what he's looking for. Truly.
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My hairstyle by the way, reminds me of Natasha Fatale from Rocky and Bullwinkle... and a little bit of Betty Paige ;)

14 comments:

  1. Very well said - totally proud of you for hanging in there and way to find a silver lining!!! Love you!!

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  2. I totally was thinking Betty Paige...but she's not a cartoon so I didn't say anything :). Silver linings sure can brighten any situation.

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  3. LA, the worst of it is now over!
    i am speaking from my own experience with divorce, and once you get over the crying days and make YOUR OWN decision when it's time to admit it's over and start fresh, it's like a new day a-dawning! ( i.e: clean sweep and redecorating your house...) it is a total mindset that only YOU can control and once you get there, which it sounds like you are now, it will only make you stronger and more confident! Keep your head up high LA...you are a survivor!!!!
    ( 'i'm not gonna give up, keep on surviving' )!!!!!
    HUGS!!!
    :O)

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  4. just have to say-
    you go, girl! what a great attitude you have after such a horrible thing! you are inspiring!

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  5. LA, you are so strong, and this is making you even stronger! You will come out of this a better person, and happier in the end. God bless you!

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  6. leigh-ann, your class continually amazes me. such a lady you are! and i *totally* see natasha in the haircut!! go check out my blog and see what great suprise i got this weekend...i promise it will put a smile on your face :)

    lisa marie
    theloveliestbloom.blogspot.com

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  7. I don't have any experience with divorce, or even marriage yet, but I can say that you are taking things amazingly well. Yes these are the cards that you were dealt, but just think of the possibilites. It's cliche to say you are on to bigger and better things, but you never know! Maybe you are! Take care!

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  8. proud of you LA, very proud!!!

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  9. On the weight loss note, I did notice it in your pics, and that's actually a pretty well known thing about divorcees, they loose weight :-) Part of it is not sitting around watching tv and snacking every night, the other part is feeling like it's time to make a change and better yourself. I bet that feels great!

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  10. I love your attitude! You already are stronger :)

    Have a great holiday.

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  11. You can do this Leigh-Ann!!! I KNOW YOU CAN!!!

    Love Momma
    xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxooxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoo

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  12. I check your blog daily and i feel like i need to say sorry. I have been together with my BF for 6 and a half years but i have come to realise that come the new year i am goign to have to break it off with him and move on with my life. I still love him but he can not give me what i need. He doesnt want to make a committment to me. I know it is going to break his heart and as well as my heart. I read your blog and find myself feeling guilty for the things that he is going to go through. So i just wanted to say that i am sorry for the pain and the hurt and i know my situation is different to yours but im sorry.

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  13. jamie lynn spears might be pregnant

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  14. hey sunshine.

    you will make it.

    keep on, keeping on.

    and know you are a treasure.

    lace

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