I could tell that I've been loosing weight over the last month. My face and my stomach show it the most. I can pull my jeans off without unbuttoning them. Belt necessary now, lol. I weighed myself last night while at Mom and Dads. I lost 10 pounds!! ...I found a silver lining in divorce. lol.
Maybe I'll give a little LA update.
I've decided to move on... however that looks. Most days I'm doing pretty good. There's definately moments where I'm unavoidably reminded...like checking the mailbox(Christmas cards to 'the Keffers'), going to bed alone, drifting thoughts, Christmastime...and just not having my best friend anymore.
I had to let my expectations and dreams of the future die, and start fresh. Which when you ignore the emotional part of it, is actually a very exciting thing. I'm not making any big decisions right now, just having fun, spending time with my family and friends, dating a bit, and taking a holiday from Freckled Nest thru December. That's been nice. I haven't taken a break since summer. I'm not waiting as long next time. And next week I have a few days off from work. :)
I've been taking good care of myself (appearance and health). I feel good and I walk with confidence. I just noticed that change yesterday. And it's funny, I notice guys checking me out. Like...what? Thats pretty new for me. haha.
Working as a secretary still, and not hermiting away. I'm not letting this destroy me. It's making me stronger. And even though I would have never wanted this, this is the cards I was dealt, and I'm moving on. I don't hope for reconciliation anymore. I don't think it's the best thing for either of us. If we hadn't broken up, I never would say that... I would tried to fix it with him. But this IS what happened, and I don't have any trust for marriage anymore. Not mine anyways. It's over. I can't go back to that. And I hope he finds what he's looking for. Truly.